keepernutsoutofgoal

How can something that once made you invincible all of a sudden cause your heart to explode and bring a pain to you so deep You can't breathe when you think so all you do is sleep sleep sleep Until it kills you Red blood all over white walls Except it's not a heart exploded... It's a brain and there's the gun, with your fingerprints all over it.

But it consumes your thoughts. Eats you alive, the thought of her, of your best friend. Of how she left, abandoned you. How are we here after all these years? Trouble breathing, this time it's real. You've been here before..lonely. Never this far, Never this much pain. Punched in the gut and can't get your breath back Do you even want to? Alone and hurting and hopeless all because she's gone. Why are you so weak that you can't even hold on? No one to talk to, just run from the pain. Take a breath, swallow and keep on moving. Weights on your heart, dragging you down. Just try, try to make it stop hurting, And maybe one night, it

They see me as perfect but I know I am not. I try to mold myself before their eyes, but my mold is cracking. How can I be perfect for you? I want to be perfect for you... They say we're human and we make mistakes. I try and apologize for the mistakes I've made, but my apologies are too late given. How can I allow you to forgive me? I want you to forgive me... They say you don't know what you got 'til it's gone. I try so hard to realize what I have, but then I look back and see what I had. How can I get you back? I want you back... I scratch, claw for you like a girl buried buried beneath, still breathing. Because I am still breathing..bre

He used to say dot dot dot Used to mean I love you And he used to say don't leave me Used to say I love you And he used to say you're good enough Used to look to say I love you And he used to call for hours Used to tell me he loved me And he used to be here, he used to love me.

And the rain reminds me of pain of the memories of the beautiful rain pitter patter on your windows pitter patter on your dreams hair wet but it's not sweat the rain pouring pouring relentless like memories like pain with no gain

Maybe he was right after all, maybe all we turn to is red. And all we have to cope is liquid, streaming from our eyes. What color? What feeling? So beautiful in a swift motion, so thoughtless in a murder. Words seep out of your mouth, and suddenly...my stones are shattered. Stones last forever, they say, but then they are torn. They've lost their glue, their love. Is that happening to us? One comment, and we're shattered. I'm shattered. My dear, how can you just leave me here?

It got lost somewhere In the hatred, in the envy. Lives were taken, blood was shed, heroes emerged. Lives lost, they were deserved. Tears poured, mouths gaped open. A country morns, a state astonished, a town diminished. This is when we need it most, but it got lost. Among the hatred, among the envy. Many years ago it was said; Make love, not war.

Subtle, subtle staring out the window, white walls in your ears. Subtle, subtle eyes crying, mouth smiling.

Red with green. Blue with orange. Bathrooms remind me of tears. So many of them throughout the years. And it's like your memory never leaves me. Almost like a daydream. Suddenly there's a notion, that this awkwardness should not exist. But who am I to fix something that is not broken? Who are you to break something not made? We carry on, and you forget, but then there's the memory. Red with green. Blue with orange. Tears in the bathroom one morning.

Tears falling, like the rain pouring down. Relentless, like cha-ching, cha-ching. Dreams crushed, the dreams of 13. Ohana means family, and this one is special. A different day, a different power. But today, just pain. Anger. Hatred. We cry,we hold, we walk. Away from that night, as we proceed out of the light.